To You!

Met them who were not perfect yet happy,
made me realize of my own  imperfections.
I was asking for myself,
for everything but forgiveness.

Thought of in a state of despair.
Written in a state of hope.

G. Paradise.
04-12-2010

You would not know. Would you?

She had mesmerizing eyes.  I’ve never met her and am pretty sure that I’m never going to. That’s a tragedy but I’m  also happy that someone did meet her, who connected "us" and thanks to this connection I was able to figure out so much about myself, things that I love, people and the harsh reality that what we often consider to be a harsh reality is actually not.

Now, it was me who, at first, tried for hours to figure out the lies and deceit  in her eyes. The problem is with me (or should I say, with us). And now I spend days wondering and trying to figure out that something to which our senses respond so well, can be so true. It’s like a mirror but just that it shows reflections of a better world with hope and beauty.

I pray for her. For myself. For everything and everyone I believe in.

Complex? Maybe. I see many things clearly now. Be happy for me.
Grammatically incorrect? Maybe. You know, I don’t care.

Love, G.
12, 13, 14-11-2010, Mumbai. 
   

Being "funny" is not the same as being "immature"!!!

Was I happier...

...when I could color the sky, green
or color the water, red?

...when I rushed to blow off the candles,
when the power came back after a power cut?

...when I thought crackers were the coolest
and big size water guns, the best"est"?

...when it felt cartoons were the best entertainment
and comics, the best read?

...when once a week I was allowed to eat out
provided I could give a reason to why I should be allowed?

...when the meaning of love was unknown,
yet there was love all around?


Why is it that "you" are not happy all the time?

Gov. 20.10.2010. (Nice date).

Today!

Sitting on the window sill
thinking of the days gone by
Realizing life'll never stay still
these cheeks have now gone dry

**
The distant lights remind me
of a smile I'll never forget
**

Weird it is
This silence
brings me not words
but sounds,
of peace
and
of life.

Govind
3-10-2010
Mumbai

Please..... Oooogh!

What I've left behind
What I am to be
The luxuries that were taken for granted
Now, at midnight, my yearn for a cup of tea

It was never about the books
It was always about life
Bitterness I am exposed to now
And the existence of strife

A long way yet to go
A long way, it seems, I've come
From that falsity of self worth
To the realization of being a scum


Govind
Mumbai
05.Sept.2010
(The question is - WHY?)

Diamonds and Rust

An amazing song written by Joan Baez. Although she might deny it, but we know it is about Bob Dylan.

The following is an excerpt from the song:

"And here I sit
Hand on the telephone
Hearing a voice I'd known
A couple of light years ago
Heading straight for a fall"

OK. My point is - light-year is a unit of distance not time.
Similarly, foot-pound is a unit of work not weight.
Song is class. Enjoy it. I cant ruin anything for you.
Gov.

I Don't...

This post might not be of any interest to anyone. I am not saying the others are. If the internet would be the world then this blog is definitely "The Sahara", where only a few venture in. And why, only Lord knows. PS: Even He doesn't.

Grammar is my biggest adversary. Realization. The laws and by-laws leave me at my wits ends.

I have no clue about my results. I am getting impatient. But it's not only the government that is testing me. It's also the people around me. Almost everyone. I am outgrowing people at an alarming rate. I hope for the best & by the end of this year, hopefully before, I would have the list of people I want out of my life, once and for all. OK, I've made mistakes too but they have all been excusable. Yeah, I am sure about it.

As it turns out, it turned out quite sometime back actually, Elasticity is not a concept exclusive to Physics. I have been reading Economics and I find it interesting. Till now. Just like people, I have outgrown subjects in the past too.

The grass always looks greener on the other side. True. Well said. But what if there is no grass on my side at all? I have to creep to the other side. Bleh!

Grrrr. Night. Dear Mr. Lorre, plagiarism does exist!
G.

Invictus

I saw many movies this week. One of them was Invictus. All the nominations it got at the Oscars and other ceremonies were justified but I am not here to discuss the movie. I am here for the poem, Invictus, that was the soul of the movie. Most of you must have read the poem but still, I am uploading it for those who haven't.

*

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley

Love. G.

Five reasons why you should not go to a Marwari Wedding!

The Food: Don’t get me wrong. This is the only reason I go to these weddings. But while selecting what I am going to eat, I stay as confused as I was during my Physics exam. The feeling is not good.

The Gossip: Oh! What the hell!! It is there at all the weddings.
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Oh! What the hell!! It is there, everywhere.

All that glitters is Gold: Or a reasonable facsimile. Irritating. But if you are a gold lover you might feel otherwise and I pity you.

The wonderful meaningless Pleasantries and Small Talks: Examples-

You have grown up so much!

*Yeah, aunty, the last time you met me was 13 years back.*

So when are you getting married? (I am all of 22, pretty nice age to them, for me to get married.)

*As soon as I am ready to go through this hell, the ceremony, and also willing to pay for it*

So who all have come from your place? (I have a joint family.)

*Don’t know! I was teleported here when I was sleeping.*

...................

The Couple: The two are secondary. It's the guest list that has to be as huge as the menu. I can feel their irritation. Especially the bride’s whose garb and all the gold on her weighs more than she herself.

PS:

I do not want to hurt sentiments of the people of my community or anyone outside of it.

I actually don't care about ^^ :P
Love, Gov..

May starts after this post..

I am standing. Don’t know where. I look to my right and then to my left. I am confused. I see infinity. I can see what is in front of me. Again, its infinity. I am jolly amused. I turn around. What was my left is now my right and what was my right is now my left. After the turn I can actually see what was in front of me initially, is now behind me. This is because there is a mirror in front that was my back initially and I realize that there is a mirror there too, that is, at my present back. So now I am in between two mirrors and with infinite* images of myself. I look again to my right, my initial left, and then to my left, my initial right, and this time I realize that there are mirrors even there. Now everything is clear. I am in a room of mirrors . I close my eyes. I go round and round and round (read it with a dramatic effect, please!) for thirty seconds. I open my eyes. I have no clue of my initial left, right, back and front. Everything is still the same.

You actually do not have to read the following but go for it...

*There are not, really, an infinite number of images; it fades out due to losses at each reflection.

Further explanation:
From your common experience, things further away appear smaller. Due to repeated reflections there are many images. Each successive image is further away by the distance separating the mirrors. Thus the line of images has prospect. Each image gets smaller than the one preceding it.


Govind
May-04.2010++
Good day to you.
Thank you 5R's

A few shots from February!

Have not uploaded photographs on the blog for a long time. So here I go.

Take care guys!
Gov.
:)

You might need some time..!

When the shadows become one,
the souls, they meet.
The holy waters
witness the miracle.
Let questions be asked,
the evening sun would testify;
all that holds true,
yet nothing was.

G
02.May.2010.


Someone: Whats the time?
Me: Ummm! Sorry,I got no idea.
Someone: What? But you are wearing a watch!!
Me: Oh yes! About that, it does not work.
Someone: Then why are you still wearing it?
Me: Its lucky for me.
Someone: (Hurriedly)Don’t be superstitious. You are young.
Me: Sir!
Me: Sir? Sir?
.
.
.
I need some water.
Bye.

Maybe a lifetime...

I’ll drink to my Love(S)
You may to your Loss.
I’ll pray, so He saves The One
whom someday you shall come across.

I feel restless but
my present is fine.
Its my future blaming,
the past of mine.

I drink to the ideated image,
that could be She.
I wonder why life is such
& how it should be.

Govind.
25-26.Apr.2010

Ten Minutes Before Expiration!!!!

I do not understand everything around me.
I am happy.

I want to listen to awesome meaningless Bollywood songs.
I want to keep believing that I can become a ruthless "businessman".
I want to keep believing that I can become a stand-up comedian too.
I want to play CS.
I want to build up my super PC within three years.
I want to have that perfect headphone.
I want to live.
I want to eat. I already do.
I want to dream. I already do.
I want to travel in all four dimensions at Godspeed.
I want to love.
I want to experience hatred, jealousy.
I want to learn playing UT, FIFA.
I want to see. I want to be blind.
I want to sleep. I want to study.(Surprised?)
I want to know.
I want to learn.
I want to forget.
I want to take. I want to give. I want to share.
I want to laugh. I want you to laugh.
I want to feel.
I want to go. I want to stay.
I want to finish off AC before I lay my hands on AC2.
I want to write more here. But I'll stop.
I want to delete this post. But I'll wait.

Govind.
Tick Tick Tick... Boom!!!
;)

Time stops and the zeroes are lost...

The Girl of the glass walls
She used to stay with me.
A night of separation &
I realize, together we should be.

Foolishly, I walked ahead
left Her alone, behind.
Freedom was an illusion then
& now I feel confined.
My heart wandered
so did my mind.
Now I am no longer with Her
She can see me but I'm blind.

...G
16-03-2010

BLEH!!!!

I cannot make peace with the countless and prevalent definitions of Love. (Reasons are many)
I have a definition of my own. (At least, I think so)

I do not have much understanding of metaphors or of mathematics that can be applied to the non-physical world.

I believe that there are only two people with the same definition of Love and only they can be in a relationship that can be called "One Made In Heaven". (This is not any definition). This is what I believe. I don't want to be the "yet another guy who tries his hand at explaining something that is impossible to explain or even to discuss". And moreover, I don't think any generalization is possible. Everyone, almost everyone, defines it based on the experiences of his/her life. Yes, some borrow it from others. Some borrow it from the books. Some from the internet.

I hope I find MY Someone who has the same axiomatic definition of Love that I have. Someone whose life would synchronize with mine.


Its 4.30AM. Need to get some sleep.
To hell with the grammatical errors. G.

The end of it all for this season...!

As I walk down
I realize
how dark the roads
actually are

As I walk by
I listen
to Her
-the complaints & cries

As I walk through
I see
the uncertainties
of life

As I walk with
I feel
the cold
that accompanies me

As I walk on
I know
its only me
who can save me from myself.

Govind.
6th Feb. 2010.
I wanted to write more but the 'effect' was wearing away.[;)]

Two years gone by.

Today is the second anniversary of my PC. I was going through the old files - actually going down the memory lane - when I stumbled upon this. One of my first photoshop works that has logos of some of the best CS(My secondary but always-to-stay love) teams in the world.



Things and people around me just like myself have changed big time in these two years but this beautiful monster has stayed the same.

Nostalgia. G.

Eclipse of Jan-2010

You all know what solar eclipse is. So wont get into all the explanations or the physics behind it.

Took few pictures from the street, thanks to a nice family who lent me an X-Ray. Then rushed back home and took a few from my roof.

There wont be something like this for another 1000 something years. So this is my try at capturing a moment in History. Uploading one of the around 20 shots I had taken today.


Cheers
Govind.

Ohh! Many Firsts...!

It has held you for all these years
Now You feel You've been set free
Those pictures never come out fine
That don't tell a story about thee

**
Uh!! Mistakes - We all make them
Ones down there & ones at the helm
**

They tell you - it cannot be done
You feel, but, education has just begun
Mind travels to that farthest end
To it, allow your heart to lend

Govind.
Dec09 - Jan10

Panoramic..

My first try at a long exposure panorama photo. I request you to click on it to see it in full size. The picture was taken at Rabindra Sarobar in South Kolkata.



Hope you guys like it.
Gov.